Lord God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and the wisdom to know the difference. Amen
My daughter Carrie is four months pregnant. I mentioned her pregnancy in one of my previous post. She had a Alpha-Feto Protein Assessment done last week. This morning she got a phone call from her doctor’s office informing her that the AFP test showed the levels were low.
AFP levels can be abnormally low which may indicate:
- The pregnancy is inaccurately dated.
- Trisomy-21 (Down syndrome).
Carrie will be thirty-five this Wednesday. As most of us know, a person of that age has a 1 in 400 chance of having a Down syndrome child.
Carrie is going to have another ultra sound this Thursday to determine if her child has Down Syndrome, etc. Maybe the gestation period is wrong and she isn’t as far along as her last ultra sound showed.
My cousin, Judy gave gave birth to a Down syndrome child when she was 18 years old. His name was Barry. That was 54 years ago. Judy passed away last year and not too long after her passing, her son, Barry left this world. I think he died from a broken heart. I can’t stress enough how wonderful Barry was. We knew as children that Barry was different but not so different. He was one of us. I don’t know if I am explaining it well enough. I do know that any child is a blessing. I do know that if Carrie’s child, my grandchild, has Down Syndrome that it won’t change the love we will all have for him/her.
Of course I pray that these tests are wrong and if they show that she is carrying a Down syndrome child I humbly ask that you pray for Carrie and our family asking the Lord to give us the fortitude that we may need. I pray that whatever we have to do, we will do with a happy heart.
I do not want to appear selfish. I just don’t want the child to have to endure all the complication that one has with Down syndrome. I don’t want him/her to suffer. I can’t stand to see a child suffer and that includes my daughter Carrie.
Dear Lord, during this trial,
I offer up to you my confusion
Give me clarity
I offer up to you my despair
Give me hope
I offer up to you my weakness
Give me strength
I offer up to you my pettiness
Give me generosity of spirit.
I offer up to you all my
Negative thoughts from Satan
So that when he asks ‘Where is Your God now?”
I may respond “Right here with me, giving me His grace
As a Heavenly beam of light penetrating your darkness!”
These six days are going to seem like six years.