What Brings Us Together

When children grow, leave home and move more than a thousand miles, you find yourself looking back to the past.

The solitude leaves me alone with my thoughts.

As you ponder on ago, you find yourself in a near trance, in your own little world where you shut out the present moment and dreamily stroll through the sights and sounds of an ordinary home where each got excited about holidays, birthdays, milestones, celebrations or just being together.


You recall how the smells of a cooking meal, or how bread baking could make the home feel comfy and cozy.

dill bread

You remember the laughter, the joy, and how we comforted each other through tears, and heartaches.

As I abruptly come back to real-time, I sigh.

Reminiscing can either bring a smile to your face or a gut-wrenching, empty feeling.


On any given day, looking around the dinner table, you find only one plus you. More times than not, I forget to remember how thankful I am to be with that “one” with whom I can share a meal.

necklace heart1

For now, quickly setting the bygone days aside and sharing a meal with the “one”,  I am consoled by the thought that food is a celebration of life, it’s what brings all or “one” of us together.

“One” and One (Tom and Me)-1990 or 1991.

Who Were You

Holidays, regular days, birthdays, anniversaries, milestones for us, are what it has been for us for the past twenty-three and a half years. They have been lonely, depressing and endless reminiscing.

You would think that after this long we would have learned to accept our lot in life.

It has been tried and tried and failed and failed.

Over three years ago, when we took a big leap in life and up and moved back…we came back here with our tails between our legs.

Right back where we started from twenty-three and a half years ago, giving up job and security.

It appears that all that’s left are dreams.


Dreams are life…as long as we still have our dreams we have hope.


One day, you wake up and realize that you are in the autumn of life and people have moved on because you are so far away.


Is it that we are so far away?  

You find that you are tired…so tired of trying to find that one piece of familiarity…After twenty-three and a half years one would think one would become familiar with ones surroundings.

One would almost think, wouldn’t one?

Yet, if my wish were to be granted, I would refuse. In a strange way, that most will not understand, desolation is my companion.

I would feel awkward.  

Desolation is a miserable companion, but desolation is all I have known for most of my life.

Maybe desolation is my familiarity.

“All right, Mr. DeMille, I’m ready for my close-up.”

La Mia Famiglia, Vecchie Foto

For my family and relatives-

1944-Gates Street-Portsmouth, New Hampshire

My maternal grandmother & grandfather, great grandmother and great grandfather

Maternal Grandmother, Grandfather, Great-Grandmother and Great-Grandfather

Camilla, Biaggio, Lucia, Nicola

Tonic, Soda, Soda Pop

Maybe it’s because I am thristy-or maybe it’s because I am thinking of my childhood while I am thirsty…

What keeps coming to the forefront of my mind is a tonic I used to drink when I was a child. For those of you that think I drank something akin to Vitameatavegamin,

Are you tired, run-down, listless? Do you poop out at parties? Are you unpopular? The answer to all your problems is in this little bottle. Vitameatavegamin. Yes, Vitameatavegamin contains Vitamins Meat Vegetables and Minerals. Yes, with Vitameatavegamin, you can spoon your way to health. All you do is take a great big tablespoonful after every meal. Mmmmmmm….. It’s so tasty, too! Tastes just like candy! So why don’t you join all the thousands of happy peppy people and get a great big bottle of Vitameatavegamin tomorrow! That’s Vita-meata-vegamin! (wink)

tonic, to me, is what soda or soda pop is to others. 

The tonic (tawnik) that I am referring to is Squamscot Soda

It’s a small company in New Hampshire that dates back to the Civil War. Their soda tonic, is still made using a simple syrup (sugar and water). Today’s sodas tonics are made using high frutose corn syrup as a sweetner.

My grandparents sold Squamscot beverages at their restaurant and when I was allowed to have a tonic, I would always have a cream soda.

That is but a distant memory to me now.  Someday I hope to have a Squamscot tonic anytime I want.

But then again, ‘Moxie‘ was another tonic I enjoyed.

What would you use to describe a carbonated soft drinks? 

Manic Monday #130

Is there something you’ve dreamed of doing for a long time? Why haven’t you done it?
It is the same old song and dance and the same old dream. I dream of moving back to New England. I haven’t done it because of finances, jobs, and the fact that we would have to unload a house first.

If you could make any fictional character come to life, which one would it be?
Umm!  Ahh!  Hmm!  (brain cramp inserted here)

If you could have a $10,000 shopping spree to one store, which store would it be and how long would it take you to spend the $10,000?
Any place where I could buy a good mattress and some comfortable furniture.

Name three things you wanted as a child but never got.
A baby doll with all the things a baby would need.
A pair of roller skates.
A pedal car-

pedal car